I will be changing my URL and blog to a new address starting from today 25/07/2007. Nothing is much different in terms of background or contents. Just needed more space for the blogging and reduce some unwanted contents to make as simple as it can be for myself and anyone else's view. Suddenly feels so bored with black backgrounds and the 3 column template makes my eyes sick and feel hard to breathe at times. So, kindly visit me at the new link..

"Have you ever been so upset at one point in your life? Have you ever felt so damn pissed off and fed-up with someone that actually made your whole body shivers to control it. Then you tend to sit in the corner of the room alone.. turning up the music so loud till you cannot even hear the whispers of your heart.. trying so damn hard to forget everything; who you are or where you are.  Crying the tears out of you in silence without a soul knows how you truly feel.

It's damn hard to put up with someone and some things you hated and still hating day by day.. it gets into you you know! Up to the point that you feel very bad about yourself for having that hate so much in you.

It grows. The hate. It's alive and our patience sometimes not helping, but throwing in more to feed that anger deep inside you.. The hatred haunts your every move, every day and every night. Suddenly one day, you will reliaze that you start to wish on an awful evil wish.. DEATH!"

God, please forgive my every sin for having this awful wish..

Signing Off,
-dandy-

Not much feelings to write, even though I had not been blogging for quite some time now. Suddenly everything feels empty, twisted, cold and weird.. I have no idea why. Coffee helps me relax a bit but the anxiety and the feeling of uncomfortable comes back when the cup is empty. Food does not excite me these few weeks too. Not even ice creams nor chocolates! The taste has all gone bitter. Maybe just in time for my plans to loose up some inches and weight. Probably I'll feel much better then.

Not much of an activity I have daily throughout the weeks. Weekdays were all the same, everyday. Weekends are not much of a 'looking forward' thingy anymore. I should get a hobby or join sports or whatever I can do to help me relax and enjoy life more. Perhaps going back to the community and social friends will help too..

I just dunno where to start. But I guess I should start it now then never. Fancy jogging this Saturday? I guess that's what I'll do. Take up jogging every Saturday morning for a start. Leave everything behind for the moment. Need to cool off and shove this twisted feeling away first.

Signing Off,
-dandy-